My Worst Traits

Day 24 of the challenge: Your top 3 worst traits.

Really? I'm trying to bring more positivity into my life, and working on growing my self-esteem after a lifetime shortage, so reviewing my worst traits doesn't exactly sound appealing. But then I think of the opportunity to honestly examine my downfalls so that I may constructively work to better them. This thought always makes me think of Jo from Little Women.

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So, here they are, my top 3 worst traits (according to me, my family might have something else to say about it):

1. I have a hard time staying focused on one task. While I'm watching T.V., I'm probably going to check my phone at some point- I'll check my email, Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter. I try to keep it to the commercial breaks, but sometimes I become to absorbed. At work, I'll be working on entering an order, then an email will come in that I will answer, and if I get a text, I'll be answering that as well. When I'm cleaning at home, I will get started on my bathroom, and putting something away in my bedroom will lead me to start cleaning off my dresser, which will take me to my bookshelf, which will take me to emptying the garbage, which will take me to a whole lot of projects begun and none completed. And then there's yoga. I'm supposed to be present and mindful in yoga, but it's so hard when I get the hunger pangs and I start thinking about what I"ll make for dinner, and then I'm thinking about my next blog post, and planning my trip to the beach on the weekend, and getting excited to see my friend Adrienne on Tuesday- and oh, where should we meet up? I know I need to take one thing at a time, and sometimes I do manage to slow down. I will make a list of what needs cleaned. I will line up my tasks at work. And I will take a deep breath in yoga, and in the rest of my life.

Lovely, soft blooms.

2. I'm good at not taking my own advice. I will see oh so clearly what someone else should do in a situation, but when it's my turn, nuh-uh. I have a million and one reasons excuses not to take my own advice. You should leave that horrible job if it's making you miserable, even though I stayed with my terrible boss for almost five years (I'm not exaggerating- she once yelled at me for going to the bathroom too often). I think it's human nature though, since it so so much easier to see someone else's life objectively, than it is to see your own. I've just got to give myself a break and hope that my advice catches on one day.

3. I have road rage. I've shaken my fist at people. I don't honk, but I swear like a sailor within the confines of my car. I get incredibly angry when someone cuts in front of me on the freeway, only to go at a snail's pace. I hate when people don't use their blinkers. I hate when the car in front of me won't scootch forward when a semi-truck is right next to me and wants to be where I am, especially when the car in front of me has a semi-truck's length between him and the car in front of him (it happened this morning- I swore and then as soon as I had the chance, I sped up to the speed limit and passed him). I hate it when cars and motorcycles make up their own lanes during rush hour. It's not just that I hate it, it's It helps if I take a deep breath and play some Bob Marley, but this is another difficult one for me to work on.

Look at that little guy!

There they are, the lowest parts of my human nature. I try to be the best person I can be, but it takes work, one day at a time.

What are your worst traits? How do you deal with them? Any advice for handling your own road-rage? I would love to hear what you have to say!

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