Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts

Sisters, Sisters

19 November 2013

If you did not hear the voice of Rosemary Clooney singing the title line of this post, then you are dead to me (I kid). White Christmas is a classic that my sister and I enjoy watching every year during the Christmas season. Every time we watch it, my dad proclaims how my sister looks like Ms. Clooney with her big blue eyes. And my sister and I talk about procuring gigantic feathered fans and putting on a re-enactment of this scene.

But really, today I am talking about my sister. Why? Because today marks 27 years since she came into my life. I remember that fateful night for two reasons- there was snow, and I wanted a Kit-Kat. I still want a Kit-Kat.

I don't know who I'd be without my sister. I used to joke about her being brought here by aliens, and there were many years where she was alien to me (she did not like playing Barbies nearly as much as I did, and it pained me). But really, having a sister is like having a built-in friend-for-life.

As someone who has moved around a bit, especially during my younger years, I don't have any childhood friends who I am still friends with. My sister is my constant, the one who knows what I was like when I was younger, who remembers my awkward years, my fat years. Most of my friends now only know the polished gem, not the gray and jagged rock that once was. But my sister has, and through the years, our relationship has only improved.

So today I am dedicating my post to the "Wind Beneath My Wings." The girl (now woman, but that one is still hard to accept) who says what she means, whether a person wants to hear it or not. The girl who sticks up for herself, even if that means stepping on some toes. To my karaoke cohort, the Elton John to my George Michael, my "Private Dancer" (inside joke), the Hall to my Oates: Happy Birthday!

Cheers to 31

28 October 2013
It goes like this: take some home-made pierogies, some homemade borscht, a lentil salad, some challah, and some zinfandel and you have the makings of a nice Ukrainian feast. Add some shots of vodka, a family, and a birthday, and you have the makings of one of the best birthday celebrations in family history.

My family is by no means perfect, but when things are good and the stars converge, it is an awesome family to be a part of. This year I wanted a homemade Ukrainian feast to celebrate my birthday, complete with vodka toasts. My brothers toasted me for giving the family a reason to drink on my birthday, and my nephew's toast went something like "Happy birthday Ray-Ray, and, I like you, and..." But the toasts that made me stop and think the most were from my parents.

My mom toasted to me for being the daughter she never thought she and my dad would have, and my dad toasted to me for being the daughter they did have. After the fog of vodka and wine and cake cleared, I was able to think about what this meant. What my existence means.

I am a physical manifestation of love.

My parents did not have an easy time conceiving me. I took a few years to arrive. But they loved each other, and that love drove them to keep trying until they finally had me.

When I consider this, I realize that I was a blessing to my parents. And it took me 31 years to figure that out. I spent a good amount of my youth feeling like the world would have been a better place if I hadn't been born. But now I see just how untrue that is, and how ungrateful to my parents that thinking is.

When I enter a new year of my life, I like to set an intention or a wish for the year. This year, I want to focus on the root of my being, on who I am. I will give myself permission to dream big, because to deny my dreams is to deny who I am at my core. And seeing that I am a manifestation of love, and knowing that love conquers all, I believe that I can truly conquer anything.

So, 31, here's to you and the infinite possibilities that you hold. May you be a year filled with love and dreams fulfilled. And may you shine brighter than any other.

Thoughts on 30

27 October 2013
As I sit here on the eve of my 31st birthday (which is Monday), I reflect upon what the past year has been. 30 was certainly not my best year, but I truly believe the best is yet to come. Instead, it was a year of learning and growing, a year of opportunities that were not meant to be. A year of connecting and re-connecting. A year of moving forward and backward.


Some highlights:
  • Spending an amazing Christmas Eve with my family, learning to make Ukrainian food.
  • Watching my nephews grow.
  • Making new friends.
  • Starting this blog.
  • Building a regular yoga practice.
  • Reading some amazing books.
  • Going on some beautiful hikes.
  • Visiting the ocean twice.
  • Going wine tasting several times.
  • Discovering many great restaurants with my parents.
  • Attending Kathryn Budig's enlightening yoga workshop.
Lessons learned about life:
  • Health comes first.
  • Personal time is a priority, not a luxury.
  • A good way to slow the passing of time is to spend it in nature.
  • Fresh air really does a body good.
  • Can't sleep? Take some slow, deep breaths.
  • Cuddle the dog. Always cuddle the dog.
  • Cuddle the babies/toddlers. They won't cuddle much longer.
  • Flowers brighten rooms and moods.
  • Not all opportunities will work out, but it doesn't mean you shouldn't try.
  • You do not have to be a friend to every person who tries.

Lessons learned about myself:
  • I'm tenacious when I have a concrete goal.
  • I'm a lean, mean, pierogi-making machine.
  • My strength lies in my sensitivity.
  • I have a lot to learn about communicating.
  • My eyes will always be bigger than my stomach, when it comes to eating, learning, reading, and experiencing.

In all, I feel that I can be proud of my 30. I really lived my 30 and didn't bat an eye at the passing of another year. If this was my 30, I can't wait to see what 31 will bring.
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